When You Are Gone

When You Are Gone

When you are gone,

soft music plays backwards

inside my lonely Wonderland.

The moon still waits by my window

every night you are gone.

The carousel still turns at night,

even after you are gone.

When you are gone,

even the stars forget to shine.

I always thought I was strong.

I never thought

my whole world

could crumble so softly.

Two people

becoming strangers

little by little,

day after day.

I miss you.

This house feels so big

and empty without you.

And the letters you gave me

are still lying

in a corner of my heart.

I did not see them.

I did not touch them.

Because touching them

hurts too much.

I miss you.

When I wake up,

the first face

that comes to my mind

is yours.

It feels like watching you

from another planet,

while I stand alone

on a different one,

unable to reach your hand.

So I make

a little paper boat,

and I place it gently

on the river.

I ask the water

to carry it to you,

but deep inside,

I know it will get lost.

I know it will sink,

because it was built

only from paper

and tears.

I miss you