The Loop Inside My HeartI stay in silence.

The Loop Inside My Heart

I stay in silence.
Silence.
Silence.

Like a doll forgotten
inside an old room
full of lace
and dust.

Then one soft word
finds me again.

One little word.
One little light.
One little “stay.”

And suddenly
my heart wakes up.

I bloom again.
I breathe again.
I become warm again.

I sew my sadness
into ribbons and flowers.
I turn my tears
into pastel dreams.

For a moment,
I feel alive.

Alive.
Alive.

Then slowly…

the distance returns.

The cold voices return.
The doubts return.
The silence returns.

And I begin fading again.

Like a paper boat
melting in the rain.
Like Wonderland collapsing
behind my eyes.

I fall back
into nothing.

Nothing.
Nothing.

But then—

another tiny spark,
another gentle voice,
another dream,

pulls me back to life again.

And the carousel starts turning.

Again.
Again.
Again.

Love.
Loss.
Hope.
Nothing.

Forward.
Backward.
Forward.
Backward.

Like an old song
that never stops playing
inside my soul.